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I'm back in Wisconsin! I should be feeling happy and glad to be here but there's just a weird feeling in me that keeps clinging onto the summer months..

I'm missing the days where I get on track and on schedule and accomplish goals that I set for myself..

I'm missing the days where I get back home and Momo would have food ready for me!:P

I'm missing the days when I get into my car, start driving myself to work, and either listening to the radio or talking to people on the phone..

I'm missing the pillow talks I have with Momo and Hien about everything and Momo's laughter..

I'm missing all my Mrs Jones and how nice they have been to me although there were some that were mean too..:)

I'm missing all the Sunday meetings when we finally meet each other after a long week and how our hearts wrench when it's time to leave..

I'm missing all the stupid stuff that we do at our headquarter..

Momo! You miss all the ants? I sure don't!XD

Seriously, I never knew summer with Varsity could be so fun and nostalgic!

Up and down, In and out!

Do you agree that most people who keep a daily journal are more depressed compared to people who don't?

Just a random question. :D

Well, the rookie that lived with me left today when she was only two days away from heading down to the beach! I don't know what's she thinking when she made that decision but I hope she doesn't regret what she did.

Left a note which was pretty emotional and I keep questioning myself if I did my part as being her manager who was supposed to guide her along the way. That definitely taught me how to be more concerned about people the next time I meet someone.

On the other hand, ONE MORE DAY BEFORE I HEAD DOWN TO THE BEACH!!!

2 more days...

before Yi Jing is going to resurrect and head to the beach!*evil grin*

I don't wanna work anymore!!Rawr!

The bridge...

just caught my attention and i feel like it explains me right now. A fragile structure that is made stronger by different elements combined together, with my elements being family, friends, even the people whom I meet everyday when I work.

3 more days to the end! So what have I learned throughout this summer?

That is still something that I have to sit down and figure out.

But one thing that I know for sure is how much parents are willing to sacrifice for their children just like how mine are doing for me and it's the one and only love in this world that will last forever.

I love you Daddy and Mommy!!

The feeling right now...

is one that I have never felt before. The feeling of your heart being all twisted up. The feeling of wanting to cry but no tears drop down. The feeling of wanting to scream but no voice comes out. The feeling of wanting to run away from everything but my feet won't budge. The feeling of wanting to hide but there's no place available. The feeling of wanting to share it with someone yet not knowing where to start from.

Is it because my pride is too strong to allow me to show the weak side of me?

Right now, I just want to collapse into daddy and mommy's arms and cry my heart out but they're so far away..

All I can say is that this is the worse homesickness that I've ever felt....

Upside down, inside out

The title explains everything about me right now.

However, in no time, I'll be normal once again.LOL

Protons and electrons

Suddenly something in my head popped and I turned into a much more positive person.

I don't really know what happened but I'm loving this new Yi Jing that has evolved. No more complains, a positive attitude all the time, this feeling is just GREAT!

But on the other hand, while I became more positive, I look around and realize that everything around me became much more negative!

Heard this somewhere but it's something like there are so much electrons in this universe compared to protons and these electrons are constantly going around seeking for protons to stick to. That's why you get shocks during winter when you open the doors. You know what I mean.

So now that I've probably became a proton, will I be attracting more electrons?:P Let's just see how long will I be able to sustain this positivity in me. Summer is coming and I definitely need lots of this!